讨厌

我答应了自己不会爱你

也不会去理会你的事了~~

但

为什么

为什么我就做不到 ! ! !

我很笨 ! 很愚蠢 !

讨厌我自己 ! !

I HATE MYSELF ! ! !

回来关丹事件好事吗 ? ! ? !

我知道你在这儿公作，

很感谢我没遇到你

我终于知道原因了！

他妈的！

我现在发誓

邱伟德只个人会永远永远从我脑里被删除！！

am i happy ?

am i happy ?
well, i guess i am..
but deep down, am i ?

it's been almost a month now
i thank God that when i go back hometown
i never get to see you
not even your family
but i must say, i missed ur family

i'm always scared to go out in crowded places now
scared that i'll see u, or the other way round
you are an evil person!
but i still cant hate u,
for i loved u once
guessed this is why i still can't let go
let go of those memories!

still, i'm happy!
family and friends uphold me
i'm still broken pieces,
still needed time..
time to join those cracks and torns
again, how long do i really, really need?
i pray to God,
"may it be now"

for i have promised myself:
i will be happy and cheerful again!
the old Catherine will return